I’ve always felt different to my sisters whether because it was obvious physically or because people always pointed it out. I acted and still act like I don’t care but it hurts so much to feel ‘ugly’ in comparison to them. They are everything I am not. I know they know it, my parents know it – everyone does. The little remarks when I was younger ‘these girls look just like sisters…..this is one looks different’.

Sometimes one little argument brings it all back - i hate this feeling. I just want to feel like i am a part of this family - i don't think anyone understands me. I know my parents look at me and are disappointed in how i turned out, i guess i am too when i look at my sisters.

Words which have been said are embedded in my heart and i cannot forgot those..........